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There's something to say about a person who makes a poet feel at a loss for words. Congratulations on your graduation. Thank you for showing me what authentic, unconditional love is, and for somehow convincing me that I deserve it. You changed my life, and for that I will forever write sappy poems about you. I know you're not sure what's next and life can be stressful, but I really do hope hopeless changes over time. 
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There's something to say about a person who makes a poet feel at a loss for words. Congratulations on your graduation. Thank you for showing me what authentic, unconditional love is, and for somehow convincing me that I deserve it. You changed my life, and for that I will forever write sappy poems about you. I know you're not sure what's next and life can be stressful, but I really do hope hopeless changes over time. #collegegrad  #oregonstate  #gobeavs  #graduation  #queersofinstagram  #gaygram  #gayagenda  #hopeless  #photography  #photographer  #amateurphotographer  #canon  #yearofselflove  #loveyourself  #blackgirlmagic  #qt  #queerbabes  #queer  #oregon  #pnw  #loveislove 
To be an older sibling means that you have a unique positional power and opportunity to be an agent of growth and change in another human beings life. This human turns 14 today and I have no idea where the years went. I've been happily feeding you feminist nonsense and senseless brand loyalty since before either of us realized what was happening. You know what they say about feminism, it's familial. I'm so proud of who you are and all that you will do. Set your sights high kid, you're going places (like @oregonstate because #gobeavs is also familial). Happy birthday you turd. I love you πŸ’• 
s/o to @chelle_beagley for the shot πŸ“·

#sister #siblinglove #happybirthday #feminist #feminism #wildfeminist #wildfang #thisiswhatafeministlookslike #canon #photography #ashland #ashlandoregon #oregon #pnw #yearofselflove #loveyourself
To be an older sibling means that you have a unique positional power and opportunity to be an agent of growth and change in another human beings life. This human turns 14 today and I have no idea where the years went. I've been happily feeding you feminist nonsense and senseless brand loyalty since before either of us realized what was happening. You know what they say about feminism, it's familial. I'm so proud of who you are and all that you will do. Set your sights high kid, you're going places (like @oregonstate because #gobeavs  is also familial). Happy birthday you turd. I love you πŸ’• s/o to @chelle_beagley for the shot πŸ“· #sister  #siblinglove  #happybirthday  #feminist  #feminism  #wildfeminist  #wildfang  #thisiswhatafeministlookslike  #canon  #photography  #ashland  #ashlandoregon  #oregon  #pnw  #yearofselflove  #loveyourself 
When I drive the same route so often it seems like what happens between turning my key and reaching my destination becomes a blur. I don't know if my car remembers how to get there or if my mind feels sorry for me so it checks me out, sits me down to rest. Over and over again I come to my senses as I shift my car into park and I wonder, how did I get here? I used to look people in the eyes as lies spilled out of my lips with such familiarity and grace. My words left poison in my mouth but met their ears like honey, sweet and sticky. They always got so stuck, stuck on my words, so carefully crafted. *excerpt from Blur
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When I drive the same route so often it seems like what happens between turning my key and reaching my destination becomes a blur. I don't know if my car remembers how to get there or if my mind feels sorry for me so it checks me out, sits me down to rest. Over and over again I come to my senses as I shift my car into park and I wonder, how did I get here? I used to look people in the eyes as lies spilled out of my lips with such familiarity and grace. My words left poison in my mouth but met their ears like honey, sweet and sticky. They always got so stuck, stuck on my words, so carefully crafted. *excerpt from Blur _________________________________ #poetry  #poet  #poem  #poetsofinstagram  #amateurphotographer  #photography  #nightphotography  #canon  #cali  #calilife  #california  #calidreams  #sactown  #sacramento  #endfest  #concert  #bridge  #queersofinstagram  #queer  #gay  #gayagenda  #gaygram  #qt  #aboutlastnight  #loveyourself  #yearofselflove  #healing 
I owe a lot to this one, and sometimes I think they might not even know it. So here's a shout out to @smellemi for living their truth and being contagiously real. I needed it πŸ’•βœ¨πŸŒˆ #friendshipgoals #queersofinstagram #queer #nonbinary #healing #beach #oregoncoast #oregon #pnw #beachlife #sand #photography #amateurphotographer #pnwonderland
in psy215, that's lifespan human development, my professor wrote attachment styles on the board 
outlining the theory textbook style
but textbooks don't feel emotion
the words don't tear holes in their pages like they do in the fabric of my reality, my self esteem
secure, avoidant, ambivalent, disorganized 
the vocabulary leaked from her black pen and her stern lips
i wonder if she can tell
i wonder if she knows that this is the terminology i have avoided for 20 years
that's avoidant 
but i hope i didn't give it away
as she names my pain it echoes through my hollow thoughts "children who develop avoidant attachment as infants are emotionally distant"
i know, i know 
it's harder to joke about a non-existent childhood when your professor tells your class that these children
that you 
may never develop attachment 
will i ever know how to develop attachment or will i just be another case study in my psy215 textbook
because i am avoidant 
as my professor called it
but what i call it is a safety precaution 
independence 
strength 
freedom
resourcefulness 
all of which, I am running out of

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#yearofselflove #loveyourself #poet #poetry #poem #poetsofinstagram #feminist #feminist #photography #amateurphotographer #photographer #nature #reflection #oregon #pnw #pnwonderland #pacificnorthwest #southernoregon #canon #healing
in psy215, that's lifespan human development, my professor wrote attachment styles on the board outlining the theory textbook style but textbooks don't feel emotion the words don't tear holes in their pages like they do in the fabric of my reality, my self esteem secure, avoidant, ambivalent, disorganized the vocabulary leaked from her black pen and her stern lips i wonder if she can tell i wonder if she knows that this is the terminology i have avoided for 20 years that's avoidant but i hope i didn't give it away as she names my pain it echoes through my hollow thoughts "children who develop avoidant attachment as infants are emotionally distant" i know, i know it's harder to joke about a non-existent childhood when your professor tells your class that these children that you may never develop attachment will i ever know how to develop attachment or will i just be another case study in my psy215 textbook because i am avoidant as my professor called it but what i call it is a safety precaution independence strength freedom resourcefulness all of which, I am running out of ________________________________ #yearofselflove  #loveyourself  #poet  #poetry  #poem  #poetsofinstagram  #feminist  #feminist  #photography  #amateurphotographer  #photographer  #nature  #reflection  #oregon  #pnw  #pnwonderland  #pacificnorthwest  #southernoregon  #canon  #healing 
i wanna make the right choice but all of these blurred lines are making me lose focus
when I close my eyes it's either you or the city but honestly it's you and the city 
if it were a list it would just be those two 
The city and us 
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#calidreams #calilife #californialove #california #californiaadventure #la #losangeles #venicebeach #beach #sunset #photography #amateurphotographer #canon #springbreak #roadtrip #futurehome #takemeback #oregoniansincali #poetry #yearofselflove #loveyourself #bemyfriend
i wanna make the right choice but all of these blurred lines are making me lose focus when I close my eyes it's either you or the city but honestly it's you and the city if it were a list it would just be those two The city and us ______________________________________ #calidreams  #calilife  #californialove  #california  #californiaadventure  #la  #losangeles  #venicebeach  #beach  #sunset  #photography  #amateurphotographer  #canon  #springbreak  #roadtrip  #futurehome  #takemeback  #oregoniansincali  #poetry  #yearofselflove  #loveyourself  #bemyfriend 
fifty balloons | fifty dollars
queer adventures | priceless 
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πŸ“·: @smellemi ✨
#yearofselflove #loveyourself #balloons #queer #gayagenda #gay #candid #allsmiles #corvallis #oregon #pnw #photography #nonbinary #theythem #queerbabes #gaygram #oregonstateuniversity #starboy
i painted the world with my shame, escaping my mind and this body
everyone felt so entitled to it that it never felt like mine anyway

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second excerpt from '13'

#poetry #poet #feminism #wildfeminist #photography #amateurphotographer #museum #museumphotography #lacma #lacmamuseum #la #losangeles #cali #calilife #california #californiaadventure #roadtrip #springbreak #oregoniansincali #shadows #art #canon #loveyourself #yearofselflove
i painted the world with my shame, escaping my mind and this body everyone felt so entitled to it that it never felt like mine anyway ______________________________________ second excerpt from '13' #poetry  #poet  #feminism  #wildfeminist  #photography  #amateurphotographer  #museum  #museumphotography  #lacma  #lacmamuseum  #la  #losangeles  #cali  #calilife  #california  #californiaadventure  #roadtrip  #springbreak  #oregoniansincali  #shadows  #art  #canon  #loveyourself  #yearofselflove 
my hands are pretty cold for someone always dreaming of warm, sunny beaches 
maybe I drain all of the heat trying to keep my heart warm until my toes reach the sand again 
it won't be long now

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if my hearts the epicenter of love then the epicenter of my heart is the city; I am constantly leaving it there
I am so in love

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